My dearest radley

My Dearest Radley,                                                                                                                      December 29th

I have too much to say to you and I know thatif we had this conversation in person, I would forget things and I can't let that happen because you need to know all of this and you need to know now. The last thing I would ever want to do is hurtyou, so:
I’ve been turned down for a movie. I auditioned and I wanted it so badly, but I didn’t get it. And I was disappointed at first, but relieved because that means I won’t be leaving you for fourmonths. I’m not sure I could take that. I’m in love with you, Radley. I’m so beyond the point of being in love with you and to be honest, I always have been. You’ve always been it for me and thoseother girls meant nothing. They weren’t you. They were nowhere near as beautiful or as funny or as smart. None of them understood me or the way I do things.
I love the way you tease me about how I makemy peanut butter and jelly. I love the way your nose crinkles when you laugh. I love it when you roll your eyes because you think I’m being cheesy, but secretly I know you love it. I love your hairand the way it feels between my fingers. It kills me when you cry when we watch “Finding Nemo”, it makes me want to hold you. I love holding you and stroking your back. I love when you hit me becauseI’m being a jerk, but you secretly find me funny. I love your laugh and how you make me laugh. I think it’s adorable when your bangs fall into your eyes and you endlessly try to blow them out of the way.You drive me crazy when you walk away from me and I get to watch your hips sway back and forth. I love your lips and the way they feel against mine. I love the way you sigh when I kiss you. It’s likemy favorite thing in the world when your body melts against mine and I need to hold you up, otherwise we’d both fall to the floor. I love your gorgeous eyes and how big they get when you look up...