Whole Lie

“Whole lie”.

Since kid, I was a sort of special boy: quiet, studious, humble and honest. I owned every behavior which could make you a good man, according with other people´s judgement. I hadevery stuff I wanted in the very moment, studied at best schools, reached the highest notes, had a bunch of good friends … for many time I was really blessed.

Once upon a day, a beautiful day, Ifelt in love. She´s all what a man can expect from a woman such as kind, intelligent, pretty, a really nice girl! … so, well, since the very first time I saw her just kneel at her feet. Used to chatand have fun as whole life friends, after a month we agree to become a couple, I gave her all about me and seems she did the same thing.

Our relationship walked quite cool and with the spend oftime my love grew, a few months flew during our afair. Until one day every inch start to change, we cannot speak as before, stopped meeting, all fall into pieces. In the starters I supossed it wasnormal, every couple walk trough a sutil coldness, so I didn´t give a lot of care. One day she told me “we need to chat”, indeed I wanted to talk with her too, seriously; we had three years together and Iwanted to ask her whether she would marry me, thought she was the one who could enliven my mornings and my whole life. However, she broke up with me before I could say anything, because she thought Iwasn´t good enough for her, she climbed that I was pretending, that this perfect man who lived within me was only a fake, a mirage. I couldn´t understand these for a long time.

I never heardabout her again. I spent so much time reminding our life along and all that reasons which she throw me at the face and I wasn´t able to pierce yet. I gave her all my own and her just kick me like aempty can. I got fulled with rage, I hated her, and I detested all with unreasonally and without knowing why. The worse thing it´s: even in this painful moments I still lover her.

It feels right...