A Taste Of Honey

A TASTE OF HONEY
SHELAGH DELANEY

You are Jo, describe your feelings towards your family and friends that try to help you during your pregnancy.

Pregnancy is tuff. Pregnancy is a burden. My mumdid not even know that I was pregnant before Geof told her. She doesen't care about me, she is with that Peter. She thinks he loves her, but I don't think so. I've seen how he looks to other girls.Helen is completely blind. But the thing is that it's natural in her not taking care about me, she has never done. Why would she start now?

I really like Geof, he is like a big sister for me. He isalways aware of me, taking care of everything. But he makes me drink milk, and I hate milk. Geof cooks really good, I love the cakes he cooks to eat with tea. Geof draws really wellsome of hispaintings are amazing, he is a good art student.

Geof has asked me to marry him, I love him, but not marriage love, I love him because he is my big sister, and I know he cares about me. He has told methat I need somebody to love me until I find somebody to love. I dont really care about it. I just want Geof to be beside me.

When Geof told Helen that I was pregnant, she came here and gave memoney, I don't want her money, but it will make us some good. Then, the stupid boyfriend or husband - I don't really know what he is but I don't care - , came in looking for her, he was a bit drunk. He sawthe money on the table and took it saying with that voice of woodpecker he has when he gets drunk “you are not giving her my money” or something like that. I don't know what she sees in him. Then,she went back with him, I can't understand why she goes with him.

Geof bought a beautiful cradle made of wicker that one of our neighbours made. I really liked it. But I don't like the idea of beingmother, having a baby in my arms?, no, no, no, I dont know how to be a mother, I don't have maternal instincts. But Geof believes I'm going to change my mind, that someday I will love my baby. I...