Allie´S Diary - The Catcher In The Rye

An alternative point of view of the catcher in the rye book - by J.D. Salinger
*this is my work and this does not follow the story in every sense of it, its just what allie might have felt while heis in hospital.
Allie´s Diary

-July 14 1946

yesterday Holden came to see me in the afternoon, he was quite depressed, even more than he normally is, I could see that even though he tried tohide it so I wouldn´t get depressed as well, but what difference would that make? Would it change anything? I guess not, after all the doctor already gave his diagnosis, I´m screwed any way, it doesn´tmake any difference to me if I get depressed, I´d deal with it, but It seems to affect them really hard. But here I am, lying in this hospital bed whose whole purpose seems to be to annoy the hell outof you. But I just keep smiling to everybody who walks in so they don't feel guilty when I´m gone.

-July 15 1946

I really miss going outdoors to play baseball with Holden and phoebe, or maybejust taking a walk to the park, do some jogging, I don't know. The fact that I´m wasting my last days tied to this goddam´ uncomfortable bed just laying there without doing anything is driving me crazy.As the doctor said, I´m feeling really tired and weak, but that wouldn't stop me, if I had the chance of getting out of hospital I´d take it right away, just so I can enjoy a final day with my familydoing some sports or whatever.

-July 16 1946

The doctor came into my room today, after he checked my signs we started to talk and I told him I wanted to go out for some fresh air. He told me toforget about any activities which included going outdoors because, as he sees it, my actual situation is "delicate". Who are they trying to fool with those words that try to sound soft? The diagnosiswas quite precise; the odds suggest I´m no with my family anymore by the 19th. The way I see it, I´m going to die anyway, so what is the problem if I spend these last days doing what I want? I just...