Monologo

It has been nothing but recognition in the last few weeks that have passed since I killed Humbaba. All of the elders think of me as a God, notjust a regular mortal, but as a man who is practically indestructible. The news has spread like fire throughout the planet and now I amconsidered a hero everywhere my story is told. Everyone knows who I am and all men fear me because I killed Humbaba. But even though I am being givenall of this recognition, I still feel emptiness in my heart, as if I keep drinking water but in the end I still feel thirsty.
I think thesefeelings I have been having are due to what happened to Enkidu. After all, it is my entire fault. He did not even want to go to the adventure. Hewarned me and I ignored him, and now he is the one who has suffered while I am admired and praised by all of the people I see. What I feel isguilt, and no matter what I try to do this constant idea stays in my mind. It is like a weight on my shoulder that I am forced to carry around.Even though I got what I always wanted, in the end I cannot help but think that I acted like a coward. If I would not have frozen in thebeginning of the battle, Enkidu would not have gotten hurt. This makes me realize that if I could go back in time and stop myself from going on thisadventure I would do so. Because all the recognition in the world is not worth this constant feeling of guilt I will carry with me from now on.