Aegis

Ms. Kenton´s Journal

Day 1:
Today was one of the saddest days in my entire life.
The first day I met Stevens, was my first day working at the Darlington Hall, I felt really nervous, but when I saw that it was also Steven´s father first day I changed my opinion. I felt pity for him, because he was already in his seventies and I knew it was going to be his last work. So I didn´t feel sobad about my situation. I asked Stevens if his father wasn´t too old to continue working, but he only responded that he was in a perfect condition and that I was being foolish.
Two months later, he fell and I knew it was because of the excessive work he did. I told Lord Darlington and he asked Stevens to reduce his father work-load.
Then he got ill and what was worse was that Stevens couldn´teven stay with his father because of the conference Lord Darlington was having. Stevens could only go upstairs to see his father for short times because he had to attend the guests. While Stevens was attending the guests Mrs. Mortimer and I were taking care of his father. As time went by we noticed that his pulse was going very weak and in that moment I knew it was going to be the end of his days.Thirty minutes later he had no pulse at all, and Ms. Mortimer asked me to tell Stevens about it.
When I told Stevens that his dad had just died, he said he was going upstairs in moment to see him but that he would have liked him to take care of his duties as a butler first. I think he just didn´t want me to see him crying, because he didn´t show any feelings at all.


Several yearslatter:
Today was a day I will surely regret.
After sending the letter to Stevens, he answered me that he was going to stay in the Rose Garden Hotel in Little Compton. I wanted to give him a surprise so I went to this hotel, and asked a member of the hotel staff to tell him I was wishing to see him. I waited for him in the tea lounge.
I haven´t seen him for 10 years, and after all those yearsworking at the Darlington Hall together I couldn´t feel anything but happiness when he entered the room, I remember rising and holding out my hand to him.
Then we fill each other with our lives. He told me who the new owner of Darlington Hall was, it surprised that Lord Darlington had died. But I didn´t really care about Mr. Farraday being the new owner of the Darlington´s Hall.
I also updatedhim with my life. I told him that my daughter was expecting a baby, I told him to visit her in his return trip in fall. I even told him that I had left my husband but that I was moving back with him again.
Then I realized that two hours had passed and that I had to go, he understood and drove me to the bus station. While we were waiting for the bus he asked me a question the really surprised me,he asked me if I was being mistreated by my husband in some way, because he noticed in the letters I was being unhappy. I answered him that I wasn´t being mistreated in any way, but that indeed at the first years of marriage, when I left the Darlington Hall I didn´t really loved my husband, and that I was getting married just to annoy him. But as the years went by and Catherine grew up, Irealized I started loving him. But of course there were occasions when I thought to myself that I have made a terrible mistake, I have even told him that I have thought of a life I may have with him but that when I do so, I realize that my rightful place is with my husband, in that moment I noticed how the expression of his face changed completely and went back to normal trying to hide his emotions.From that moment I knew that our relation was never going to be the same.
Finally the bus arrived and I had to go, I was not sure when I was going to see again Mr. Stevens, probably in a lot of time, we might even don´t see each other again.
Several days after the meeting:
This day might have changed my life completely but I don’t care anymore.
These last days I have been thinking about my...