Erick Harris Diary

I hate the fucking world, to many god damn fuckers it in. To many thoughts about societies all wrapped up together in this place called AMERICA. Everyone has their own god damn opinion on every damn thing and you maybe saying "well what makes you so different?" because I have something only me and V [Vodka, Dylan Klebold] have, SELF AWARENESS. Call it exortenstiolism [existentialism] or whateverthe fuck u want, we know what we are to this world and what everyone else is. We learn more than what caused the wild war and how to simplify quadratic in school. We have been watching you people we know what you think and how you act all talk and no actions. People who are said to be brave or couragous are usually just STUPID. then they say later that they did it on purpose cause they are bravewhen they did on feuding [fucking] accident. GOD everything is so corrupt and so filled with opinions and points of view and people's own little agendas and schedules. This isnt a world anymore its H.O.E. [Hell On Earth] and one knows et. self awareness is a wonderful thing. I know I will die soon, so will you and everyone else. Maybe will we be lucky and a comet will smash us back to day 1. peoplesay it is immoral to follow others, they say be a leader, well here is a fuckin news flash for you stupid shits, everyone is a follower! Everyone who says they arent a follower and then dresses diff or acts diff.... they got that from something, they saw on TV or in film or in life. No originality, how many YO MAMMA jokes are there and how many do u think are original and not copied. KEINE. [NONE-Ger] It's a fucking fitting place we live in - all these standards and laws and great expectations (-webb) are making people into robots even though they might "think" they arent and try to deny it. No matter how hard they try to NOT copy someone. I still AM! except for this fucking piece of papers right here, and B.T.W spelling is stupid unless I say, spell it how it sounds, it's the fuckineasiest way. Hey try this sometime, when someone tells you something, ask "why?" eventually they will be stumped and cant answer anymore. Thats because they only know what they need to know in society and school, not real life science. They will end up saying words to this "because! Just shut up!" people that only know stupid facts that arent important should be shot. What fucking use are they.NATURAL SELECTION. KILL all retards, people w/ brain fuck ups, drug adicts, people who cant figure out to use a fucking light. GEEEAWD! People spend millions on saving the lives of retards, and why. I don't buy that shit like, "oh hes my son though!" so the fuck what, he aint normal, kill him. put him out this misery. "But he is worth the time, he is human too" no he aint, if he was then he wouldswalow a bullet cause he would realize what a fucking burden he was. -4/10/98
as I said before, self awareness is a wonderful thing. I know what all you fuckers are thinking and what to do to piss you off and make you feel bad. I always try to be different, but I always end up copying someone else, I try to be a mixture of different things and styles but when I step out of myself I end up lookinglike others or others THINK I am copying. One big fucking problem Is people telling me what to fuckin do, think, say, act, and everything else. ill do what you say IF I feel like it. But people (IE parents, cops, bad teachers) telling me what to just makes me not want to fucking do it! thats why my fucking name is REB!!! no one is worthy of shit unless I say they are, I feel like GOD and I wish I washaving everyone being OFFICIALLY lower than me. I already know that I am higher than almost anyone in the fucking Welt [World -Ger] in terms of universal Intelligence. and where we stand in the universe compared to the rest of the UNIV. and if you think I dont know what Im talking about then you can just "BUCK DICH" and saugen mein Hund! [suck my dog] Isnt america supposed to be the land of the...