My Nombre Es Jamiel

My name is Jasmiel I am 10 years old.
1983
they are fighting again my mom and father in law. I lock myself in my room trying desperately to drown out they're screaming. I am scare, it was neverthis bad. I'm shivering even thought is blazing hot outside .N ever before have I ever felt this useless have to take my mine of this so I walk across my dim room and reach out for Robby my pet pit-bull.I smile despite the fact my face is soaked with my tears. It stings but I'll put that aside because when I am with Robby I am at peace, My mom did it again making her life useless everyday thinkingthat this is the best thing ever I told her to stop but she never listen I remember how bad it when for me the last time I told her to stop drinking. And my dad what can I say . ii never met my day heleft us when I turn 2 years and I don't remember nothing about him because he wasn't at home a lot ,so I had to see my mom like both dad and mom. My mom had lots of problems at work and with friendsand every time mom gets in fight mom comes to my face shouting that everything is my fault because if I wasn't born this wouldn't happened to her. several times I think of dyeing. I know my parentsdidn't made me because they decided to or because love like any normal kid is made my mom got pregnant when she was 15.
dip inside of mommy heart I know she loves me, but she is stuff loved becauseshe was born that way. I really love her, I'm always trying my best to impress her but it doesn't work and I don't know anymore if I am doing it for my own good or for my mom, she is always mad at meand who knows why, I am tire of this I don't know what to do anymore. Every time I try to talk to her she is always on the phone or she is at parties .but you know what that's my mom and I cant donothing about it just love her a lot.
1984
it's really cloudy outside I decide to take Robby for a walk. Me and Robby were playing catch with his new toy."Robby catch" I screamed...all of a sudden a...