Falta De Voluntad

Falta de voluntad
Se puede hacer algo con la falta de voluntad? Cómo motivar? Cómo crear esa ilusión de voluntad en la mente?
I find myself stammering like a fool; what’s with me now? I write astupid “have a nice weekend” on a post it with my hand shaking, and I send it over to him. It’s similar, this is costing me words literally, it’s becoming hard to talk. I can breathe alright, and do mylife, my usual; but I find myself stammering a lot, I wonder.
He answers me with an sms; oh fuck I just can’t accept this break up, I can’t. I have seen too many movies, tv shows, soap operas, heardtoo many songs. Yes we belong together and there must be something I can do now to turn all this crap round. The TV taught me we do not give up, I am not ready to give up, I have so much to give, somuch to say. How am I gonna make him listen to me? He has to listen, and I know there should be a way; I refuse to believe this is it. I just have to find the right communication channels.
It’s justthat, well even though I’m so smart and talented, I realized life is much better if someone is by your side. My life is so wonderful, I can have fun by myself, I’m a self confident girl. So many womenwould love to be in my shoes, for a lot of reasons; and yet the best part was sharing it with someone. He is a part of me, so his decision is ripping me, literally. I’m doing my best, focusing onmyself, I love me, but omg I don’t want to live without him, I just don’t.
So he answers with a cold: have a nice weekend too. I don’t want to have a nice weekend, I just want to hold him and tell himto stop playing games with my feelings. To tell him to make an effort, to convince him that love requires efforts and a lot of work but it’s worth it. Going to an adventure in the waterfalls with theone you love it’s priceless; how to convince him?
I understand I was choking him, well me too I have to learn lots of stuff, I’m naïve and I love too much. So now I have to make him see that...